a little glimpse

wish me luck~! :) for tomorrow!

puasa tak lama lagi akan menjelang..
then raya! :D

by fasting, we can feel a glimpse of life lived by those people unfortunate enough to actually starve for days at end. we're lucky, at the end of each day, we are greeted by mountains of food and delicacies. Just for one month, we can feel and live a glimpse of those unfortunate people.. Alhamdulillah kita diberi rezeki yang melimpah-ruah ini. Bersyukurlah..

akhirnya

awwww.. =)
gona have a good night's sleep tonitee ^^

Kawan..

this will definetely take things out of my mind.. for now..

Kita dendangkan lagu merdeka,
Kita kibarkan jalur gemilang,
Kita lupakan duka sementara,
Kita jauh sudah rasa merdeka,
Kita tidak terasa lelahnya.

Kawan..
Masa bukan pengubah minda,
Masa bukan melupakan segala,
Lama dulu pedih sengsara,
Lelah pertiwi menanggung duka,
Merintih anak yang hilang nyawa,
Hanya kerana ingin merdeka.

Kawan..
51 tahun.. Cepatnya berlalu,
Cubalah pandang.. Cubalah lihat.. Cubalah dengar..
Sesekali terdetik jauh di sanubari,
Kenikmatan merdeka telah dirasai,
Kelenaan kita yang terbuai mimpi,
Rasa bangga dan megah tika ini.

Kawan..
Perjalanan masih panjang dan curam,
Ombak masa terus bergelora,
Kuatkan bahtera kita meredah lautan,
Jangan sesekali lupa jasa mereka,
Sesekali pandang ke belakang,
Cuba lihat dan rasai peritnya,
Mencari erti KEMERDEKAAN,
Jangan diabai dan sia-siakannya.

MERDEKA HARI INI hasil nukilan Encik Ahmad Nizam

it's getting better.. it is.. accepting it and just moving on.. everything has a right to heal.

even the most broken.

kau terlalu istimewa~

kau terlalu istimewa..
ingin kulihat kau dewasa..
tapi apakan daya..
Tuhan lebih menyayangimu..

a wonderful song..


my blog's becoming kinda dull ryte now. really noticable huh? :P
nothing to write about.. no more updates.. just not in the mood these few days..

should i move on? or go back?
should i just carry on and leave the past?
or should i go back and go through it all again?
should i or should i not?
do i want change? or do i want things to stay the same?
i do not know. i really don't.

WRAP IT UP~!

home..

mek wana go home..
i just want to go home..

anything..

i would do anything.. just anything..
for all of this to be alright again..
i can't go ahead too fast.. i don't want wrong assumptions..
i don't want to move back.. i can't go through all those nights again..
i want it all to be gone.. but i cherish each minute I've been through..
i want it so bad.. till i worry myself..
i don't want it just as much as i do..
and i would do anything..
anything.. to just take this feeling away..
anything.. i would..

out of ideas.

alalala~~ :)
love bein home ehh.
family i love.. but there's always that person who just makes toungues wagging.
uncles who act like kids. huhh~~
oh well. kuching is still the best niways ^^

*bianca = 3 months 1 week 3 days

destiny

it's going to descend on anyone. maybe it will.maybe it won't. maybe it should happen. but what would happen after that? maybe it shouldn't happen.than nothing will change.

it all depends on what's going to happen.

kes menggegarkan~

malam tek bes ehh. tak KEJADIAN yg meng'involve polis. the report.

tempat kejadian dirahsiakan.

da seorang lelaki tok.. bangsanya iban.. nya mabok masa ya.. nya g padang bola nok masa ya org2 nok tgh men bola ya suma org melayu. pasya laki ya g nyumpah2 org2 melayu.. alu lah sorang pemain bola ya slap nya.. then.. laki mabok ya lari ke kereta nya.. ngambik parang dari but kreta nya.. ditunggah nya geng nya.. dwak org jakla. ya daknya megah2 jalan embak parang ya. jalan nang ngeshow laa.. parang ya ditunjuk2 nya ke suma.. pkey nya ya tek hero la tekk..

skali dak melayu ya sik sikit2 turun dari rumah2 masing2.. nang berpuluh2 daknya ya ehh.. g ngejar laki 2 orang ya tek.. daknya ya bes agik.. embak kayu nang panjang. cangkul gk ada.. ya daknya ngejar daknyaa.. mintak ampun ndah laki yaa tek. kenak jwak nya ditukuk kayu ya ehh.. ya laki mabok ya sempat lari ke dlm utan.. geng nya tek lari ntah ke cney dah laa.. dah laki lam utan ya mabok.. ya polis pun datang.. alu lah daknya g carik laki ya.. nasib la laki ya dijumpa polis dolok.. mundak nang abis la laki ya.. cayak tak.. laki yang diburu ya tengah tido.. lam utan nya nyaman2 tido.. dah nya mabok.. gya la jadi nya.. x]

mamak n bapak went to singaporeee~~ mamak's advice to me n aziza : don't kill anyone.
heeeee~~ =DDD

Dayang Siti Dewi

im home. :) kuching~~~

THE RAT ADVENTURE.

org bes2 tgk spongebob tengada jak bunyi kak maria neriak.

pasya bunyin suma org neriak. pasya mek g ke dapur mek neriak jwak skali.

Dayang Siti Dewi lepassss~!!! bunyi daknya coba nangkap yaaaa. riuh kedak bunyi apa jaakkkk.

Sang Siti ya nait peti ais la. g lam sink laa. p nang kenyang la Sang Siti ya. beras. pisang. kain2 lap pun dmakan nya ehh.

last2 tek dpt jwak dtangkap eh. Kak Deng tangkap pegang ekor nya jak eh. ceridak ceridak. dah benda ya besaaa. ewwwww~~~ pasya di engkah daknya lam kandang hamster. kejut hamster ya dialih ke tempat len secara emergency. sakit jantung nya aie. xD nektok.. tikus ya on display. haha. ngan aziza yaa dari tek ngerepak sal animal cruelty. trinity la tekk :P

mek da ambik gamba Sang Siti yaa~!
tikus tanah nya ya. errr =/

Penutupan.

mamak : pandey jwak tak nangkap ya mak cik munah eh.

mak cik munah : ehh. mun aku sorang dah lepas dah nya ya.

:DDDDD

memories

memories.. i have a love-hate relationship with these things..
i love recalling all these beautiful memories.. but i hate the fact that these are just memories.. things that have gone past.. and things that u can never get back.. i hate that feeling of wanting so badly to go back.. but knowing i just can't..

sri mawar's field and canteen.. one of the places that brings back just so many many memories..

the field.. where PJ was.. where a friend in year one did things he shouldn't have.. where beanbags were a favourite game among us girls.. skipping ropes.. hula hoops.. all taken from the little store near the teacher's small toilet.. the warming-up we did with cik yee in year one.. where we ran laps so small looking at the laps in chung hua make us whinge for the old sri mawar field..

the canteen benches.. where us girls had fun times sitting during year 6 pj lessons.. with 'THAT' excuse and all four of us just coincidentally all at once..*heee.. where memories unfolded right before our very eyes.. where looking at our friends playing ball just changed everything.. where fights and sorry's began.. where shouting matches were held.. and where puzzles were solved..

memories.. i treasure them with every fibre of my being.. scared to let them go.. and to forget.. clinging on to them.. terrified if letting go means forgetting.. but.. hating the fact that those memories can never return.. and hating the fact that we're growing up just a fraction more..

ke arah kecemerlangan :)

"oo. so cute!"
"telutubbies"

why do these things always look so fake? aren't they real people too? why do they look so perfect and just so.. plastic?

don't ask me why i'm talking bout fake eyes. coz i don't know and i dont think i want to either.

oral trinity tekk.

nervous da jak tek ehh..

the title : Sarawak - Rich In Culture.

bes da jak molah topik tok baa. especially part nok bahasa2 len2 yaa. nasib dak kak hala tauk klaka kadayan jwak. kat skul. huh. mintak tolong mark mintak dari org len, xda nya ya molahh. dah ada tambahan kat dbah ya gikk. haha. mek tauk cgek conclusion jak : kita tok klaka sarawak jak konpom pandey eh. haha. nok len yaaa. boh laa arap. :D

trinity tekkk. org examiner ya pun muka serious da jak. dah tauk org nervous, tengok nya xsenyum makin jadi takut ehh. p mek klaka jak laa. cam besaa. zizah madah kali sbb nya tengah pkey kenak la kita tok join, mundak dapat nya balit udah. haha. p.. boleh la jwak trinity ya tekk. sekurang2 nya dah OVER. :)

TRINITY OVER YEAYYY~!!!!!!!!

p.. the BEST part. pat balit SRI MAWAR~!! mek ngan yam suk ada jak jalan2 d cya. g toilet pun cam apa. haha. owh. ngan sri mawar brought back memoriess. xcayak ehh.. dwak taun dah mek tinggal kan skolah ya.. asa tua dah ehh. x[ tengok benda tunnel kat blakang canteen ya.. teringat ngan 'The Famous Five'. memories ehh. ngan cgek gk cgek gk. the COUNTDOWN ke UPSR.

good luck year 6 srsm this yearr. make sri mawar proud. 100 % passes please~ owh. n try to beat year 6 2006 50%++ all stret A. lalala. we the bestt :P

KE ARAH KECEMERLANGAN. ~!

CUTI CUTI CUTI~!! SEMINGGU XBOH BANGUN AWAL. YEAAYYY~!!!

happy da jak eh rtok.. but y do i feel tears in my eyes..?

cgek abis. ya datang cgek gk.

at a saloon near you.

"mak. aisha mok ambut depan pendek"

"sak berjerawat"
"xkan. xkan"
"akan. sak berjerawat''
"mun sha g skul sha klip ambut depan"
"hmmm.."
"boleh la mak"
"aok la"
"yeay!"
"=.='"

SNIP SNIP. cut cut. CHOP CHOP.

FRINGE FRINGE. :D

piano exam.

on the way to musique galerie.

aziza : mak, zizah nervous.
mak : xhal. tengok org olimpik ya. steady jak. mun xtauk control, memang daknya udah crumple under pressure.
aziza : ish mak. mun aziza penyet udah.
aisha : hahahaha :D
trust aziza to make people smile even when nervousness descends on us all.:)

while aziza waited her turn next.

aziza : ya allah. ya allah. takut takut. calm down calm down. argghh (in her heart)
examiner (coming out to go to the toilet) : helloooo. just a minutee. just a minutee. (in a sing-song voice and a face that just lights up the room)
aziza : *behind the examiners back* - stands up and gives us the thumbs-up with a smile stretching from ear to ear.
mamak : *leput leput tetak*
again. aziza with her jokes.

MY TURN.

i completely messed up the scales! arggh. F major pun lupak. at least the examiner was really kind and didn't make huffing noises like the examiner last year did when we played even one note wrong.
also. appregios - UTTER DISASTER. x[
the rest went by fairly well.

NO MORE PIANO EXAM!!!!!!!!! :DDDDD

FREEDOM~!!!!!!!!

oh. wait.
trinity tomorrow.
oh ****.

terrible start to a day.

bad day. like aint that obvious enough? =.=

first. piano exam kaktok. ya xskul tok. erghh. kali pertama mek madah tok ehh. WISH I WAS IN SCHOOL. arrrggghh... takut takutt. errr. dah kh rtok polah kerja kayuu. ugi ehh x[

i dono what i feel. what i want. n what is goin on anymore. :S confused. so so confused.
~will be back with news on the exam. ARGHHH!

p.p.s. aziza rtok bgn kan mek by saying "I hate people". even SHE feels it.

curiosity kills YOU.

today went like this.

~science lab = melanie+aisha+bianca sitting together = disaster. we didn't listen to anything teacher said (so much for turning over that new leaf, huh bianca?:P) and now i have no idea what we were supposed to understand. err. what? lol.

~library. anonymous. everyone has the right to believe what they want to believe. you don't ask them why and tell them things you know is just plain ******. i don't judge you in what you believe then why are you judging the things that I believe in? everyone has the right and you should learn to respect. that's it - learn to respect and people will respect you. if you don't know how to respect then just keep your GREAT ideas and curiosity to yourself.

~tears. yes, that book made tears well up. seriously, it's a wonder. i love it and now i want it as it belongs to bianca. book from heaven. seriously:)

THE BOOK.

things i should be worried about :

1. english trinity exam. on friday. and i am so NOT prepared. oh, well. :) *i don't seem worried and i know it. lol.



2. PIANO EXAM. tomorrow. BAD BAD BAD. argh!!! pieces i can go through with. the SCALES i have NOT memorised. x] i CANNOT wait for it to be over with. then.. no piano exam worries for the rest of the yearrr~!! woohhoooo. yes. i hate piano exams. :)

the OTHER book . of which i do not like.

first piece. menuetto. i actually kinda like this song~=)

second piece. drifting. i like the pedalsss~ and the sound it makes. like an echoooooo

third piece. la poupee de marcella. i'm sick of this. all the happy jumpy notes. ergh.

last nyte - tuesday night - tuition with cikgu *erhem* - FUN! :D

proof that even maths teachers find maths boring =P

before i get off this laptop and start being a GOOD girl and practise the piano.. just wanted to say..

look~!!! FISH. :D

Love

DOUBLE POST~! i just started this blog so don't be surprised when i start slacking in updates. :)

wrote this for Ci Hui. Not FOR her. Just for her English notice board. She's gonna do the BM karangan. heee~=)

Love


He told me he loved me..

"Love. That word eveyone knows but so very few understand. What does it mean? That LOVE? Look it up in the dictionaries and they'll tell you it's a feeling. Yes, a feeling. No one, not even dictionaries know how to explain 'Love'. Well, who can? The most I can think of is that love is something that happens in your heart. You can't stop nor can you make it appear. It comes and goes on it's own acord. You can't control love. Love controls you.

Love. Love for your parents, for your siblings, for your family members, for your friends, for the earth, for animals - that I understand. Love makes you care about that something or someone. Feel their pain, share their happiness. You do little things that mean the most. Love is an adjective you see, you have to DO love. BY doing love I mean by doing things to show you love, that you care. Love is not a noun. No matter what anyone says. Because, if love is a noun, then it'll just be love. Being nothing. Just love. So, love is an adjective.

Love. Then, there's the love for another human being. A lover - a relationship. What love is that? Like the wife so madly in love with her husband letting him take her children, letting him conquer her life, giving her no freedom. Is that love? What about the girlfriend so desperately in love with her boyfriend she drinks things she knows she shouldn't, take things she knows is wrong, does things she knows comes with dire consequences - is that love?

Love. Love between two human beings is said to be the best feeling in the world. But then, why doesn't it last? Divorces, seperations, break-ups - all due to love that just does'nt last. However, ask anyone who's gone through all that. Just ask them. Do they regret loving? Most would probaly say no. I guess the phrase 'To love and to loose is better than to not love at all' really is true.

Love. Sometimes, love lasts you know. Like the ageing couple who grow old together and are still in love - cherishing each moment spent together. Like the childhood sweethearts who grew up and got married, raising up children together. Those married couples celebrating their 50th anniversary. Love does last. Love is just simply magical - something to wonder about.

Love. Love your parents and you'll respect them. Love your siblings you help whenever you can, you keep secrets. Love your friends and you'll share all the good and the bad. Love the earth, you'll try keeping it clean. Love your partner - indiscribable.

Love. It's just something noone, before, now and in the future (even with all the technology) will ever know how to describe. Love - it's special and a complete mystery. So, just leave it be. Everyone loves a little mystery in their life once in a while. "

I closed my eyes and whispered 'I love you too', meaning it with every fibre of my being. I did, I loved him. Silent tears rolled down as I held on to the hand of
the person I love as he started to drift off to a place noone goes and comes back. I watched my hero slip away, and I couldn't do anything. I was powerless. I had to let him go. To a place I knew would make him happy - to a place up above.
My brother. Gone. Gone after sacrificing his life to safe the life of his own true love. Now that's, true love..


"Love is like holding a handful of sand,
Grip it tightly and it'll trickle through your fingers,
Hold it gently and it'll last forever"

By Aisha Aznizan

SOAP~! and a lil bit of snot. :)

what? me? a blogger? never thought about it. but since melanie just had to insist.. no harm done if i give it a go.

now, shall i start? :D ahaha.

yesterday was actually supposed to be the day i started my blog, but my internet had other ideas. My blog post was already ready complete with pictures and all and the internet just had to break down. taking all the data with it. argh! frustration. =.='

soo.. just a glimpse of yesterday's should be post. was just gonna introduce our buddy to the world. :)

this is SNOT! our buddy! say hye SNOT! :P

he has eyes that make you feel dumb dumb dumb.

but then i killed SNOT. cut it in half. just had to try out my new pen knife. *haha*

say bye-bye SNOT :S

SOAP! SOAP! SOAP! today's art class was funnnnn~!!!!! we were supposed to carve soap into floral patterns. but most of us got side-traceked and made air-fresheners instead. Our class was like a huge washing machine! all you could smell was SOAP!

this was my unsuccesful attempt on a four-leaved thingy. most of the petals came off anyways. x]

the air-freshener they made by chopping the lil pieces of left-over soap.

by this time, i've hacked through 3 bars of soap and I can seriuosly tell you it's not working. I actually made a hole in of the bars of soap. guess i'll just have to continue hacking soap bars until I get one decent enough to pass up. that'll be fun! :D

currently reading P.S. I Love You by whats-her-name-i-forgot. but the book is seriously just wow. it's awesome! just like the movie. but i prefer the book (which belongs to bi btw)

busyyy this week. piano exam on thurs n on fri the english trinity. :[ and exam after the hols! arghhh. n they say life as a student is easy. *huh*

oh aok. xsabar for this saturday! yeay yeay cutiii..! xsaba xsabaaa ^^
dahla eyh, kelak penoh jak tulis lam post cgek tok, esok xtauk pa gk nak dtulis klak.
kay kay. daaaa~=)